As if.
But if I could, I would spend money just on food, clothes, and tattoos. I guess also life obligations, but those are default, i.e. home, transportation, health.
Friday, September 14, 2012
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Tattoo done!
I got my abdomen tattoo done! Oops, I forgot to post here, but better late than never :)
I want to thank Arlin at Gastown Tattoo Parlour for coming up with a beautiful piece that I couldn't have done on my own, and for blending it so well with my existing rose tattoo. It's so beautiful! I can't wait to get it coloured.
(It hurt SO much ._. had to stop after outline and shading)
I want to thank Arlin at Gastown Tattoo Parlour for coming up with a beautiful piece that I couldn't have done on my own, and for blending it so well with my existing rose tattoo. It's so beautiful! I can't wait to get it coloured.
(It hurt SO much ._. had to stop after outline and shading)
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Abdomen tattoo!
More tattoo ideas!
Ok, so I have a rose tattoo on my right pelvis. I've been thinking of balancing it out and having it on my left side as well, but then also joining both together across my abdomen somehow. But with what?
So far I've been thinking more floral imagery, and perhaps a vintage/antique beauty feel, with filigree and that old mirror/frame aesthetic. Just a beautiful piece to have, in full colour.
Ok, so I have a rose tattoo on my right pelvis. I've been thinking of balancing it out and having it on my left side as well, but then also joining both together across my abdomen somehow. But with what?
So far I've been thinking more floral imagery, and perhaps a vintage/antique beauty feel, with filigree and that old mirror/frame aesthetic. Just a beautiful piece to have, in full colour.
Feelings
Sometimes I really don't like them.
Feelings.
Actually.
A lot of the time I really don't like them.
Feelings.
Actually.
A lot of the time I really don't like them.
Monday, March 12, 2012
Things I Should Do
Because I love making lists, here is one of things I should learn to do, do at least once, get back into, or do more of:
Rock climbing
Surfing
Yoga
Snowboarding
Ice skating
Bungee jumping
Swimming
Make an awesome eggs benedict
Play more gee-tar
Snowshoeing
Hiking
Skateboarding
Learning languages (Portuguese!)
- improve my French, German, and Chinese
Traveling
Painting
Sewing
Capoeira (even though I have no upper body strength)
Ballet
Going to the theatre
Saving my money
Rock climbing
Surfing
Yoga
Snowboarding
Ice skating
Bungee jumping
Swimming
Make an awesome eggs benedict
Play more gee-tar
Snowshoeing
Hiking
Skateboarding
Learning languages (Portuguese!)
- improve my French, German, and Chinese
Traveling
Painting
Sewing
Capoeira (even though I have no upper body strength)
Ballet
Going to the theatre
Saving my money
Sunday, March 4, 2012
One more tattoo idea
ANUBIS.
I think a tattoo of Anubis would be flippin' rad. He is the Ancient Egyptian god of the dead and embalming (usurped only by Osiris, who is god of the underworld). He's got this awesome black head of the jackal, and embalms dead bodies and mummifies them. How cool is he.
I think a tattoo of him, in the style of how he was represented in Ancient Egyptian art, would be so awesome. I'm not sure whether I'd want him standing in his profile, or maybe him embalming a body. I also don't know where to put him either. My left side? That's going to fucking hurt. Or the side of one of my thighs? Pretty good space there.
I think a tattoo of Anubis would be flippin' rad. He is the Ancient Egyptian god of the dead and embalming (usurped only by Osiris, who is god of the underworld). He's got this awesome black head of the jackal, and embalms dead bodies and mummifies them. How cool is he.
I think a tattoo of him, in the style of how he was represented in Ancient Egyptian art, would be so awesome. I'm not sure whether I'd want him standing in his profile, or maybe him embalming a body. I also don't know where to put him either. My left side? That's going to fucking hurt. Or the side of one of my thighs? Pretty good space there.
Monday, February 27, 2012
Poached eggs!
Today I tried a second attempt at making poached eggs, and I think I succeeded! Well, at least it looks better than the first time I tried to do it. I also tried to make it look like eggs benedict, but I didn't have english muffins, nor did I have enough butter or red pepper powder to make hollandaise sauce. Next time.
Don't mind the half-eaten Babybel cheese.
Don't mind the half-eaten Babybel cheese.
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Updated tattoo list
Alright, so here is the last list I posted:
A mermaid on my left foot.
A fleur-de-lis somewhere on my left side, or the left of my back, or my left inner forearm.
Another quote on the left side of my back, below the shoulder blade.
A realistic looking crab on my right shoulder blade.
An antique sewing machine.
The theatre tragedy/comedy masks.
A compass?
Don't want at the moment:
A fleur-de-lis. I feel like I might still get one, but not sure where to place it. I'm pretty driven to the beautiful antique-looking ones.
The rest I still want.
Now add:
An antique pair of scissors on my inner right forearm (I drew one out awhile ago)
Sleeves. Muhahah this will scare people.
I'd like a vintage-themed sleeve on my right arm, shoulder to wrist I think. A rad-looking sugar skull to start at the top (so it fits in the roundness of the top of the arm/shoulder), then a pinup girl (I'm thinking she's going to be sewing), some banner action, roses, and sparrows.
A water-themed sleeve on my left arm, shoulder to wrist probably. The crab I want to get I'll change to my left shoulder, and have it flow into my water sleeve. It'll have imagery of an octopus, jellyfish, waves, koi.
I'm debating whether a nice clipper/galleon, anchors, compass should be in the water sleeve or the vintage sleeve, because those elements are now going into a nautical theme. OR MAYBE I COULD DO SOME NAUTICAL STUFF ON A LEG! :O! I will have a mermaid on my left food... hehe.
I would eventually love to get a portrait of my parents on my back, probably on my right shoulder blade. There's this great photo of them from maybe the early eighties or something, and it's of them sitting next to this big alligator sculpture (probably in Malaysia somewhere), and they look really young and chill, with really cool retro outfits and hair.
The antique sewing machine I'm thinking could go on my right upper thigh.
Other ideas that I'm playing around with in my head are just maybe some more florals, pinups, and if I've gotten to the point where I have this amount of ink, I would get a DOMO tattoo. Yes I would. Because by that point, it wouldn't even matter to me.
So, you can judge me all you like, but tattoos have taken a whole different level in this day and age. I personally blame the 90s and the 80s for some of the notorious "bad" tattoos, and the weird tribal/celtic stuff, and the names (when it's not a memorial). Also, you can see that now so many more people who are NOT criminals, sailors, prostitutes, and circus freaks get tattoos.
Please check out The Body Modification Directory. This is my best friend's directory on all things body modification. She's written some really awesome posts about people who are body modified, and who have really great positions in today's society, and even some royalty back in the day were known to have tattoos. There are just some really great posts that will put you in a different perspective when it comes to body modifications.
Before you judge people who have tattoos, please look at their piece and think, they've made a decision about what they want to carry on their body permanently, and it's not just some ink on skin, it's art, and maybe you could even call it living art. Tattoos are inevitably going to fade, the ink will bleed, and just like the body, it will change, but it depends on how you take care of the tattoo, and yourself, and it only ages as you age, and inevitably, you age every year, every day, and every second. There are some really AMAZING artists out there nowadays, and when you look at their work, it's hard to believe they're able to do it with a vibrating needle (that can vibrate up to 5000 times/minute) on a surface like the human skin. When you see some really impressive, intricate, and beautiful pieces on people, you could also think about the money they've invested in this - meaning they probably are doing ok in life (so, not a degenerate), and finding some extra time and money to invest in a lifelong tattoo, that you can never take from them. There is nothing much else in the world that is as permanent as a tattoo on a living body, and it will still be on there when the person dies.
That's a pretty worthwhile investment in my books.
A mermaid on my left foot.
A fleur-de-lis somewhere on my left side, or the left of my back, or my left inner forearm.
Another quote on the left side of my back, below the shoulder blade.
A realistic looking crab on my right shoulder blade.
An antique sewing machine.
The theatre tragedy/comedy masks.
A compass?
Don't want at the moment:
A fleur-de-lis. I feel like I might still get one, but not sure where to place it. I'm pretty driven to the beautiful antique-looking ones.
The rest I still want.
Now add:
An antique pair of scissors on my inner right forearm (I drew one out awhile ago)
Sleeves. Muhahah this will scare people.
I'd like a vintage-themed sleeve on my right arm, shoulder to wrist I think. A rad-looking sugar skull to start at the top (so it fits in the roundness of the top of the arm/shoulder), then a pinup girl (I'm thinking she's going to be sewing), some banner action, roses, and sparrows.
A water-themed sleeve on my left arm, shoulder to wrist probably. The crab I want to get I'll change to my left shoulder, and have it flow into my water sleeve. It'll have imagery of an octopus, jellyfish, waves, koi.
I'm debating whether a nice clipper/galleon, anchors, compass should be in the water sleeve or the vintage sleeve, because those elements are now going into a nautical theme. OR MAYBE I COULD DO SOME NAUTICAL STUFF ON A LEG! :O! I will have a mermaid on my left food... hehe.
I would eventually love to get a portrait of my parents on my back, probably on my right shoulder blade. There's this great photo of them from maybe the early eighties or something, and it's of them sitting next to this big alligator sculpture (probably in Malaysia somewhere), and they look really young and chill, with really cool retro outfits and hair.
The antique sewing machine I'm thinking could go on my right upper thigh.
Other ideas that I'm playing around with in my head are just maybe some more florals, pinups, and if I've gotten to the point where I have this amount of ink, I would get a DOMO tattoo. Yes I would. Because by that point, it wouldn't even matter to me.
So, you can judge me all you like, but tattoos have taken a whole different level in this day and age. I personally blame the 90s and the 80s for some of the notorious "bad" tattoos, and the weird tribal/celtic stuff, and the names (when it's not a memorial). Also, you can see that now so many more people who are NOT criminals, sailors, prostitutes, and circus freaks get tattoos.
Please check out The Body Modification Directory. This is my best friend's directory on all things body modification. She's written some really awesome posts about people who are body modified, and who have really great positions in today's society, and even some royalty back in the day were known to have tattoos. There are just some really great posts that will put you in a different perspective when it comes to body modifications.
Before you judge people who have tattoos, please look at their piece and think, they've made a decision about what they want to carry on their body permanently, and it's not just some ink on skin, it's art, and maybe you could even call it living art. Tattoos are inevitably going to fade, the ink will bleed, and just like the body, it will change, but it depends on how you take care of the tattoo, and yourself, and it only ages as you age, and inevitably, you age every year, every day, and every second. There are some really AMAZING artists out there nowadays, and when you look at their work, it's hard to believe they're able to do it with a vibrating needle (that can vibrate up to 5000 times/minute) on a surface like the human skin. When you see some really impressive, intricate, and beautiful pieces on people, you could also think about the money they've invested in this - meaning they probably are doing ok in life (so, not a degenerate), and finding some extra time and money to invest in a lifelong tattoo, that you can never take from them. There is nothing much else in the world that is as permanent as a tattoo on a living body, and it will still be on there when the person dies.
That's a pretty worthwhile investment in my books.
Friday, February 3, 2012
???????????
Happy New Year!
Map tattoo: Check! Finally!! Just a little happy news. Though that's not the point of my post.
Here we go.
So, you know about this HUGE raincloud over my head about what I'm going to do with my life. I always seem to be ranting about my life and my choices on this blog, plus I change my mind all the time. Sorry guys :(.
Well, now there are new additions.
Grad school for visual arts at UBC? I'm going to see how this term goes during my art courses, and see if I feel some level of confidence in my artistic skills and creativity. I have a lot to learn still. Also, it'd be an appointment with an advisor, and three years of grad school. If I get a masters, that means I can teach at a university. Teaching at a university? Pretty lucrative. Teaching something that I enjoy myself? While also being able to continue art the whole time? Pretty awesome. If I ever have kids, they won't have to pay for school. Yeah, pretty damn awesome.
I'm probably going to stay with my parents for the next while, though moving out is much better for my privacy and independence, I feel it truly is the smarter choice. Why would I want to pay rent if I don't have to? Also, it's a matter of safety too for my family, especially since it's just the three of us in our house, plus 3 tenants downstairs, so it'd be good to have everyone there in case anything happens.
If I were to move out, I would want to be able to at least put a down payment on a rad place of my own.
Embalmer. Funeral Director.
Now, this is a pretty new thought. I can thank Levy Tran for this idea, as she was an apprentice embalmer, and I researched it as a potential lucrative job, and it sounds morbidly appealing, as people do die everyday... The only thing is that I don't know how I would be able to handle working with the dead. I've never seen a dead body, nor have I ever been to a funeral. I am also extremely scared of ghosts, spirits, demons, the supernatural in general. However, my "clients" would never judge my tattoos, once I eventually move on to the visible ones, that is if I stick to embalming only, though as a funeral director, I'd probably be wearing long-sleeved, covered, almost formal/business attire when I'm with clients.
Another thing is, this also sparked an interest in researching the environmental issues surrounding the funeral industry, like what is being buried in the earth - a casket made of varnished, stained hard wood, metals like copper and bronze (maybe even gold), silks, satins, and a dead body that has been filled with embalming fluids, containing chemicals like formaldehyde and ethanol. I still want to do more research into this, but wouldn't it be so interesting to take mortuary science classes?
Costume has been part of my life now for the past few years, but I feel like that fire is not burning so hot. I feel inadequate, untalented, self-conscious, insecure, and unsure of whether this is my true passion anymore. It's been turning over and over in my head since the summer, and I don't know what to think anymore. Just this past fall I did costume and wardrobe assisting on two major and really cool productions, both different, both rewarding in their own ways. Also, I got accepted into an internship with the Arts Club for a show that will be up in June, called Xanadu. That's a pretty big deal! I feel like I could WORK in the industry, but when it comes to DESIGNS, I feel extremely sub-par. I used to love creating and sewing in my own time, in my own space, for myself and friends in high school, and maybe that's all I want to stick to. Nowadays I've been thinking more about wanting a lucrative job, with the ability to be creative and productive when I'm not working.
I wanted to do a masters in costume design, but I don't want to do it at UBC (after witnessing what the grad students seemed to go through..), and places where I'd probably make the most out of it would be New York and/or London. Almost every single costume designer out there who's made it big in the theatre and film industry have come out of New York and/or London, but those cities are expensive, not only to study, but to live in. Also, I'd be competing with the rest of the world. Now you know why I feel sub-par? Feeling sub-par isn't helping me encourage myself to do better, I realize that, yes.
Fuck.
What am I doing?
Next post will be something that makes me happy. Like an updated list of tattoos I want to get, or maybe I'll post pictures of DOMO and my sock monkey.
Map tattoo: Check! Finally!! Just a little happy news. Though that's not the point of my post.
Here we go.
So, you know about this HUGE raincloud over my head about what I'm going to do with my life. I always seem to be ranting about my life and my choices on this blog, plus I change my mind all the time. Sorry guys :(.
Well, now there are new additions.
Grad school for visual arts at UBC? I'm going to see how this term goes during my art courses, and see if I feel some level of confidence in my artistic skills and creativity. I have a lot to learn still. Also, it'd be an appointment with an advisor, and three years of grad school. If I get a masters, that means I can teach at a university. Teaching at a university? Pretty lucrative. Teaching something that I enjoy myself? While also being able to continue art the whole time? Pretty awesome. If I ever have kids, they won't have to pay for school. Yeah, pretty damn awesome.
I'm probably going to stay with my parents for the next while, though moving out is much better for my privacy and independence, I feel it truly is the smarter choice. Why would I want to pay rent if I don't have to? Also, it's a matter of safety too for my family, especially since it's just the three of us in our house, plus 3 tenants downstairs, so it'd be good to have everyone there in case anything happens.
If I were to move out, I would want to be able to at least put a down payment on a rad place of my own.
Embalmer. Funeral Director.
Now, this is a pretty new thought. I can thank Levy Tran for this idea, as she was an apprentice embalmer, and I researched it as a potential lucrative job, and it sounds morbidly appealing, as people do die everyday... The only thing is that I don't know how I would be able to handle working with the dead. I've never seen a dead body, nor have I ever been to a funeral. I am also extremely scared of ghosts, spirits, demons, the supernatural in general. However, my "clients" would never judge my tattoos, once I eventually move on to the visible ones, that is if I stick to embalming only, though as a funeral director, I'd probably be wearing long-sleeved, covered, almost formal/business attire when I'm with clients.
Another thing is, this also sparked an interest in researching the environmental issues surrounding the funeral industry, like what is being buried in the earth - a casket made of varnished, stained hard wood, metals like copper and bronze (maybe even gold), silks, satins, and a dead body that has been filled with embalming fluids, containing chemicals like formaldehyde and ethanol. I still want to do more research into this, but wouldn't it be so interesting to take mortuary science classes?
Costume has been part of my life now for the past few years, but I feel like that fire is not burning so hot. I feel inadequate, untalented, self-conscious, insecure, and unsure of whether this is my true passion anymore. It's been turning over and over in my head since the summer, and I don't know what to think anymore. Just this past fall I did costume and wardrobe assisting on two major and really cool productions, both different, both rewarding in their own ways. Also, I got accepted into an internship with the Arts Club for a show that will be up in June, called Xanadu. That's a pretty big deal! I feel like I could WORK in the industry, but when it comes to DESIGNS, I feel extremely sub-par. I used to love creating and sewing in my own time, in my own space, for myself and friends in high school, and maybe that's all I want to stick to. Nowadays I've been thinking more about wanting a lucrative job, with the ability to be creative and productive when I'm not working.
I wanted to do a masters in costume design, but I don't want to do it at UBC (after witnessing what the grad students seemed to go through..), and places where I'd probably make the most out of it would be New York and/or London. Almost every single costume designer out there who's made it big in the theatre and film industry have come out of New York and/or London, but those cities are expensive, not only to study, but to live in. Also, I'd be competing with the rest of the world. Now you know why I feel sub-par? Feeling sub-par isn't helping me encourage myself to do better, I realize that, yes.
Fuck.
What am I doing?
Next post will be something that makes me happy. Like an updated list of tattoos I want to get, or maybe I'll post pictures of DOMO and my sock monkey.
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Piercing!
On Tuesday night I decided I should get a piercing. So on Wednesday I got a conch piercing at the Fall!
My tragus piercing there still isn't 100% happy, but I'm hot soaking that ear now for the conch piercing, so maybe it will be happier.
Body mods are definitely addictive. Just over a year ago I only had my two lobe piercings, and a rose tattoo. Now, I've added a helix, nostril, tragus, and conch piercing, and a tattoo on my right side/rib cage. I think in a month or two I want to get a daith piercing on my right ear, maybe third lobe piercings, and really really soon I'm to get that world map tattoo that I've been wanting for awhile now.
I feel like my street cred gets a few points :P
I also have to thank my friend Alexis for exposing me to body mods and things, not that I wasn't before, but when I was able to be friends with someone who's really into it, I definitely got more into it. Yay friends! :) She's super rad.
Anyway. I love body mods now. I also like looking at tribal tattoos too, and old vintage ones from Europe and the US (particularly the US Navy).
If I can come up with a good theme, I would do one sleeve of tattoos. I never was really a fan of them, but if they're done right, I think they're fantastic. So far I'm thinking it'd be a water-y theme, or some sort of vintage style, like roses and other old tattoo symbols.
I definitely have a list of tattoos I still want to get, and a lot of them are visible so I'd have to wait until I don't live with my parents anymore. Part of me is kind of curious as to what would happen if I just started getting the visible ones. Would they make me laser it off? Would they never talk to me? Would they disown me? I have no idea anymore. Maybe 5 years ago they would have never allowed me to have the piercings I have. Especially my mom. Now I have a very obvious nose ring. The ear piercings I feel are more "acceptable", since they can be easily hidden with hair, and they're not on the front of the face.
If I don't move out in a year or so, I think I will just go ahead and start with my visible tattoos. What can they do, really?
Ahh my crazy thoughts and plans.
Hope things are well with you :)
Body mods are definitely addictive. Just over a year ago I only had my two lobe piercings, and a rose tattoo. Now, I've added a helix, nostril, tragus, and conch piercing, and a tattoo on my right side/rib cage. I think in a month or two I want to get a daith piercing on my right ear, maybe third lobe piercings, and really really soon I'm to get that world map tattoo that I've been wanting for awhile now.
I feel like my street cred gets a few points :P
I also have to thank my friend Alexis for exposing me to body mods and things, not that I wasn't before, but when I was able to be friends with someone who's really into it, I definitely got more into it. Yay friends! :) She's super rad.
Anyway. I love body mods now. I also like looking at tribal tattoos too, and old vintage ones from Europe and the US (particularly the US Navy).
If I can come up with a good theme, I would do one sleeve of tattoos. I never was really a fan of them, but if they're done right, I think they're fantastic. So far I'm thinking it'd be a water-y theme, or some sort of vintage style, like roses and other old tattoo symbols.
I definitely have a list of tattoos I still want to get, and a lot of them are visible so I'd have to wait until I don't live with my parents anymore. Part of me is kind of curious as to what would happen if I just started getting the visible ones. Would they make me laser it off? Would they never talk to me? Would they disown me? I have no idea anymore. Maybe 5 years ago they would have never allowed me to have the piercings I have. Especially my mom. Now I have a very obvious nose ring. The ear piercings I feel are more "acceptable", since they can be easily hidden with hair, and they're not on the front of the face.
If I don't move out in a year or so, I think I will just go ahead and start with my visible tattoos. What can they do, really?
Ahh my crazy thoughts and plans.
Hope things are well with you :)
Friday, November 18, 2011
Friday
Today maybe wasn't the best day I've ever had.
It did make me realize that I have the best friends I could ever have and know in the world. I'm really lucky. I have friends that date back to the beginning of my school life, those who've grown to know me in high school, university, and a whole treasure of new friends that prove to be just as invaluable and amazing. People really do make a difference in our lives and I just want to take a moment to appreciate the people who make a difference in my life and who've helped shape me into the person I am right now.
To friends.
It did make me realize that I have the best friends I could ever have and know in the world. I'm really lucky. I have friends that date back to the beginning of my school life, those who've grown to know me in high school, university, and a whole treasure of new friends that prove to be just as invaluable and amazing. People really do make a difference in our lives and I just want to take a moment to appreciate the people who make a difference in my life and who've helped shape me into the person I am right now.
To friends.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
...but what makes me happy?
Coming home to homemade Japanese curry on brown rice, really big blackberries, ginger ale, and Goldfish crackers.
And jasmine green tea after a nice shower.
There is noone like your mother and no place like your home.
And jasmine green tea after a nice shower.
There is noone like your mother and no place like your home.
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
I'm a sad person
This morning on the bus I realized that I am a pretty sad person, or I at least go for really sad things. Sad in the emotional sense and now I guess also in the lame sense for thinking of myself this way.
Some of my favourite songs are sad, slow, and/or morose. A lot of the movies I like are usually dramatic, have sad endings, maybe dark, but more than often dramatic with heavy emotions and plots. If I were to choose all the TV shows I watch (and I don't watch a lot of it), a lot of it will probably be dramatic, and the most powerful episodes will be the sad ones. Something about watching the characters when they break down, and seeing their vulnerability makes me appreciate it a lot more. I do also love comedy on television though, that I really do enjoy! The plays that I choose for my costume assignments are more often than not dramas or tragedies. I did paper projects for Death of a Salesman (how much more sad can you get?), The Cunning Little Vixen, The Merchant of Venice (really a "tragicomedy", but things don't end well for Shylock), Antigone, and my next one I'm choosing to do the famous opera La Boheme. All but one of those plays involve dying protagonists. And I had the freedom to choose a play for each of these projects.
Also this week for me has been daunting and I cannot wait for it to end. Today I feel like there is a full moon, as everything appears a bit shifted and unsettling for me, and today I felt really unstable and unsure of myself.
The full moon is up and the wolves are out after the world and me.
Here is a sad song for you.
Some of my favourite songs are sad, slow, and/or morose. A lot of the movies I like are usually dramatic, have sad endings, maybe dark, but more than often dramatic with heavy emotions and plots. If I were to choose all the TV shows I watch (and I don't watch a lot of it), a lot of it will probably be dramatic, and the most powerful episodes will be the sad ones. Something about watching the characters when they break down, and seeing their vulnerability makes me appreciate it a lot more. I do also love comedy on television though, that I really do enjoy! The plays that I choose for my costume assignments are more often than not dramas or tragedies. I did paper projects for Death of a Salesman (how much more sad can you get?), The Cunning Little Vixen, The Merchant of Venice (really a "tragicomedy", but things don't end well for Shylock), Antigone, and my next one I'm choosing to do the famous opera La Boheme. All but one of those plays involve dying protagonists. And I had the freedom to choose a play for each of these projects.
Also this week for me has been daunting and I cannot wait for it to end. Today I feel like there is a full moon, as everything appears a bit shifted and unsettling for me, and today I felt really unstable and unsure of myself.
The full moon is up and the wolves are out after the world and me.
Here is a sad song for you.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
New glasses!
My friend Crystal recommended the $38 Clearly Contacts promotion. I was seeing the signs everywhere, but you know how sometimes it takes a person who's actually ventured for the deals to motivate you to do it too. Alexis kept telling me about how great Clearly Contacts were too, and they actually had a free glasses promotion awhile back but I somehow didn't jump at it :|
So I got these! They're men's glasses of course, because my head is so big I can't fit women's glasses very well. My last pair were men's glasses too. I also realized that I got those in grade 11, so it's been awhile for sure. $38 for frames is definitely not shabby! All together it came to about $92, including lightweight lenses, and UV protection and anti-glare. Anyway, I like them a lot!
So I got these! They're men's glasses of course, because my head is so big I can't fit women's glasses very well. My last pair were men's glasses too. I also realized that I got those in grade 11, so it's been awhile for sure. $38 for frames is definitely not shabby! All together it came to about $92, including lightweight lenses, and UV protection and anti-glare. Anyway, I like them a lot!
Friday, October 14, 2011
Shoes shoes
The other day I got these awesome lime green Reeboks at Urban Outfitters on sale for a really good price!
Then today before heading to work at the Queen Elizabeth, I went to do some shopping for working at the Chan Centre (I just got hired), and found these awesome black beauties at Aldo - also on sale of course. I could definitely wear these to work.
Ok so I have a shoe problem - but I have to do a major purge and then maybe host some sort of "Steffi is having a giant clothing and shoes giveaway" event at my house where people can come and take stuff I don't wear! Maybe they can bring their own and we could all do a stuff swap, but hopefully me giving more than taking stuff.
Then it was time to go work at the QE Theatre, just for three nights, selling merchandise for Alberta Ballet's "Love Lies Bleeding", essentially a whole show devoted to Elton John and his music. Here is an example of things we sold:
Then today before heading to work at the Queen Elizabeth, I went to do some shopping for working at the Chan Centre (I just got hired), and found these awesome black beauties at Aldo - also on sale of course. I could definitely wear these to work.
Then it was time to go work at the QE Theatre, just for three nights, selling merchandise for Alberta Ballet's "Love Lies Bleeding", essentially a whole show devoted to Elton John and his music. Here is an example of things we sold:
Haha. We all wore feather boas while we were selling too.
Yay!
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Thanksgiving Weekend
To start off, at my Saturday job, one of our managers baked us a pumpkin pie!! With whip cream that she made in the kitchen at work! Amazing! Pumpkin pie is sooo good. Our receptionist made the awesome turkey sitting on the pie, and the little "Happy Thanksgiving!" sign.
That night I went to check out a documentary at the Vancouver International Film Festival, called "The British Guide to Showing Off", which is about Andrew Logan, an amazing artist, performer, sculptor, designer, and everything in between. He hosts these "Alternative Miss World" competitions and they are essentially an alternative beauty pageant that is more about expressiveness and art than it is really a competition. It was absolutely fabulous! AND Andrew Logan himself was the special guest and came here all the way from London for the screenings! Amazing! After the film there was Q&A and he graciously answered all curiosities.
That night was the closing night of a show I was doing concessions for "The Trial of Judith K." and I started doing some little caricature doodles of the awesome people in the theatre department, starting with Megan Kennedy, who is my friend and was the front of house manager for the show. Then I moved onto Tony who works our box office... and it grew from there. Kennedy has the final product, I don't remember who I drew in the end, but there are quite a few people. Kennedy drew me on the bottom right.
The next day, I meet my wonderful friends, because our best friend ALEXIS is in town for a week from Montreal!! We went to Bon's, an amazing restaurant with amazing prices - an all day breakfast special is $2.95. HAPPINESS ALL AROUND.
That night I went to check out a documentary at the Vancouver International Film Festival, called "The British Guide to Showing Off", which is about Andrew Logan, an amazing artist, performer, sculptor, designer, and everything in between. He hosts these "Alternative Miss World" competitions and they are essentially an alternative beauty pageant that is more about expressiveness and art than it is really a competition. It was absolutely fabulous! AND Andrew Logan himself was the special guest and came here all the way from London for the screenings! Amazing! After the film there was Q&A and he graciously answered all curiosities.
I kind of like lip balm a lot. Though I don't remember ever fully finishing one. Anyway. I bought this from Shoppers and I really like it! It's from eos, a natural and organic brand that boasts how moisturizing, and smooth this lip balm is! What I really like about it is its fun shape and the taste! Flavour? It's "summer fruit" I think. It smells and tastes sooooo nice!
Monday night was when I had Thanksgiving dinner with my family at my aunt's house. She made enough to feed maybe about 15+ people.. though we were only 7. It was delicious! We didn't have pumpkin pie, but instead carrot cake. Her potatoes and gravy were amazing. Then again I love all potatoes and gravy.
I hope you all had a lovely weekend, whether you celebrate Thanksgiving or not!
This year, I guess I am thankful for how lucky I am to still live with my parents (thus live for free) and to be alive. These days I realize how mad and upside-down the world is, and I'm just happy to be here and have the ability to pursue my interests and live a happy life. My mom also recently got my dad and herself an iPad, and me a MacBook Pro, and also helped me out a lot financially during my trip to Europe this past summer. I am definitely very privileged this year!
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Sunday Night
I met with my friend Thao and we went to see "Under Control" from the
Vancouver International Film Festival at Empire Theatres. It was a
documentary on nuclear power and the various plants in Southern Germany
and in Austria. It was pretty interesting, it takes you through the
various plants and how they function, almost as if the present was
taking care of what was started in the 50s and 60s. I read about this in
the Georgia Straight and thought it would be interesting - since it
observes how they run a nuclear power plant, and near the end, discusses
the future of nuclear technology, and also some footage of plants that
have been shut down and eventually abandoned or used for other purposes,
like an amusement park.
Afterwards,
we were going to watch another film at Pacifique Cinematheque, but we
were stopped in front of Joe's Apartment for a free salsa lesson. Thao
had never done any salsa and we seemed pretty much up for anything and
decided to go in! It ended up being pretty fun! We learned cumbia,
Colombian salsa, chachacha, merengue, bachata, and basic salsa. I'd
already learned most of the basics for these dances, but I had never
done Colombian salsa. The instructor used Thao to demonstrate - and
flipped her!! Thao really had an experience for her first time!
Monday, September 5, 2011
Vancouver is so rad
I have to say, I'm really glad I live here.
Tonight my friend invited me to an awesome block party in East Van, that I'd never heard of before, and it was pretty cool! It was in an alley by Nanaimo and Venables, and it had a really rad scene going on. The music was chill, and it reminded me of stuff you'd hear at an island festival. Actually, everything about it made me feel like I wasn't in Vancouver, but in South America or Mexico. It would be so great if the city had more stuff like this, but you almost want to keep it on the downlow, since it's like a hidden gem, safely tucked away in a suburban neighbourhood, with what are clearly really awesome neighbours to allow them to do this every year - and for a good cause too! The money from the alcohol is being sent to Nirobi!
Anyway, here are some photos of what it was like, it really felt like I was somewhere else.
Summer in Vancouver is so nice, especially when the weather is nice too!
Tonight my friend invited me to an awesome block party in East Van, that I'd never heard of before, and it was pretty cool! It was in an alley by Nanaimo and Venables, and it had a really rad scene going on. The music was chill, and it reminded me of stuff you'd hear at an island festival. Actually, everything about it made me feel like I wasn't in Vancouver, but in South America or Mexico. It would be so great if the city had more stuff like this, but you almost want to keep it on the downlow, since it's like a hidden gem, safely tucked away in a suburban neighbourhood, with what are clearly really awesome neighbours to allow them to do this every year - and for a good cause too! The money from the alcohol is being sent to Nirobi!
Anyway, here are some photos of what it was like, it really felt like I was somewhere else.
Summer in Vancouver is so nice, especially when the weather is nice too!
Monday, August 29, 2011
Post-undergrad-I-don't-know-what-to-do-with-my-life CRISIS
I am currently experiencing this uneasy, unsettling, unstable point in my life where I am in my early 20s and have recently graduated from a bachelor's degree at a recognizable university, but have no real career guarantee, or any sort of security. All of this is fine, and really I don't need to know my sure career path, or feel stable, but I feel like society (and my parents) have made all of this become a large rain cloud over my head that constantly pours down on me, saying things like "what are you going to do with your life?" and "what are you going to do that will make you successful?". So of course, I ponder these all the time, whether I can help it or not. This is what I've come up with:
1. Ideally, I would try to find ways to become a costume designer of sorts as my career path, either for film or theatre. I think it would really be great. In Vancouver however, this has been proven quite challenging. So far, it's just been working on small and mostly student theatre and film productions, that have little to no budget. If there is anything that I work on that is actually related to the professional world (i.e. the Vancouver Opera, a show for the Discovery Channel), it doesn't pay and will only remain as construction, paperwork, or organizational tasks that most likely will not lead to design work.
This would then lead to looking at grad school options in other places. During my travels, I checked out a school in London, and tried to check one in New York (will email them...), and looked online at another school in London, and one in Edinburgh. A grad school will probably transform me into a better candidate for internships, making strong and important connections, and ideally, job opportunities in the theatre and/or film industry.
2. Something that I had been thinking about off and on throughout my undergrad is audiology and speech sciences. I got a scare a couple of years ago when I was with my friends and we were in a pretty quiet restaurant. A friend of ours played a high-frequency noise off of his cellphone (something along the lines of the sound a dog whistle makes) and all of my friends were obviously squinting and irritated by it, even though it was played for just a few seconds. I think he did it just to show what it'd be like for a hearing test? I'm not sure. What freaked me out is that I couldn't hear it. I was just sitting there, undisturbed, and unaware that a high-frequency noise had disturbed the air, though I could see that I was the only one not flinching from it. That's when I realized that my hearing was probably is worse condition than my friends, who were all about my age, +/- 1 or 2 years. This really freaked me out. A lot. That's when my occasional thoughts on studying audiology became a little more frequent. I believe that our generation's hearing is going to deplete much faster than it really should. Unless you don't frequent the club and/or concerts, and don't use earphones. I'm trying to use earphones less now, though I still do go to clubs occasionally.
So, I looked into the School of Audiology and Speech Sciences at UBC, and it looks like a really reputable program, and I doubt there will be a shortage of need for hearing doctors in this day and age. It's a masters degree, and it's really competitive. There are quite a few prerequisites that I'd have to meet (I didn't exactly take physics or audiology classes going into an arts undergrad) and I'd compete with almost 200 others for a spot in the Masters of Audiology program, which accepts 12, and Speech Sciences accepts 23. My chances look real good, don't they. This is a Masters of Sciences, too, which puts me in a more compromising position.
I do keep thinking about this though, and if I really wanted to pursue it, I have no hesitations taking the required courses in order to apply to this program.
3. Tattooing.
This is a newer idea, and I blame Kat Von D and L.A. Ink for this. I've always enjoyed art growing up, and I'm pretty sure I started drawing as soon as I knew how to start writing. I haven't been drawing extensively as of late, even while I was designing at UBC. Though now, I think it wouldn't hurt to take more visual arts courses and expose myself to this world, slowly and observantly. I'll have to more research into artists and art history, and definitely tattoo art, before I should consider this seriously. I recently started picking up the pencil again, and before I went to Prague, I started to really look at pinup drawings and found to really like the work of Gil Elvgren, who's probably inspired a lot of the pinup tattoos we see today. This idea I think will stew a little slower in my head than the other two, only because it will be even more compromising, mainly because my parents will likely never approve - though I try not to let this control my future pursuits, it still does, especially because I still live with them. It really makes me wish that tattoos were less of a social stigma to them, because it is progressively becoming socially acceptable, once people realized that inked people weren't all delinquents, criminals, and sailors, or any other negative tattoo stereotype. I think my mom still thinks that people who get tattoos are stupid, crazy, do drugs, and don't succeed in life. I wish my parents could see otherwise, and were less judgmental. Though I am being pretty judgmental of them at the moment.
ANYWAY.
I don't know what to do with my life. My current immediate goals are to get a second job, and take one costume design course and some visual arts courses at UBC, as an unclassified student. I'll email New York and see what applications are like, and also for Edinburgh too. I'll also see if I'm even ready to apply, though it probably wouldn't hurt to apply anyway.
I honestly hate all of this uncertainty. I don't like this feeling of being "stuck" in a limbo, while time just keeps ticking away. I'll have to make a move, and I'm probably going to try to make myself do something sooner than later.
1. Ideally, I would try to find ways to become a costume designer of sorts as my career path, either for film or theatre. I think it would really be great. In Vancouver however, this has been proven quite challenging. So far, it's just been working on small and mostly student theatre and film productions, that have little to no budget. If there is anything that I work on that is actually related to the professional world (i.e. the Vancouver Opera, a show for the Discovery Channel), it doesn't pay and will only remain as construction, paperwork, or organizational tasks that most likely will not lead to design work.
This would then lead to looking at grad school options in other places. During my travels, I checked out a school in London, and tried to check one in New York (will email them...), and looked online at another school in London, and one in Edinburgh. A grad school will probably transform me into a better candidate for internships, making strong and important connections, and ideally, job opportunities in the theatre and/or film industry.
2. Something that I had been thinking about off and on throughout my undergrad is audiology and speech sciences. I got a scare a couple of years ago when I was with my friends and we were in a pretty quiet restaurant. A friend of ours played a high-frequency noise off of his cellphone (something along the lines of the sound a dog whistle makes) and all of my friends were obviously squinting and irritated by it, even though it was played for just a few seconds. I think he did it just to show what it'd be like for a hearing test? I'm not sure. What freaked me out is that I couldn't hear it. I was just sitting there, undisturbed, and unaware that a high-frequency noise had disturbed the air, though I could see that I was the only one not flinching from it. That's when I realized that my hearing was probably is worse condition than my friends, who were all about my age, +/- 1 or 2 years. This really freaked me out. A lot. That's when my occasional thoughts on studying audiology became a little more frequent. I believe that our generation's hearing is going to deplete much faster than it really should. Unless you don't frequent the club and/or concerts, and don't use earphones. I'm trying to use earphones less now, though I still do go to clubs occasionally.
So, I looked into the School of Audiology and Speech Sciences at UBC, and it looks like a really reputable program, and I doubt there will be a shortage of need for hearing doctors in this day and age. It's a masters degree, and it's really competitive. There are quite a few prerequisites that I'd have to meet (I didn't exactly take physics or audiology classes going into an arts undergrad) and I'd compete with almost 200 others for a spot in the Masters of Audiology program, which accepts 12, and Speech Sciences accepts 23. My chances look real good, don't they. This is a Masters of Sciences, too, which puts me in a more compromising position.
I do keep thinking about this though, and if I really wanted to pursue it, I have no hesitations taking the required courses in order to apply to this program.
3. Tattooing.
This is a newer idea, and I blame Kat Von D and L.A. Ink for this. I've always enjoyed art growing up, and I'm pretty sure I started drawing as soon as I knew how to start writing. I haven't been drawing extensively as of late, even while I was designing at UBC. Though now, I think it wouldn't hurt to take more visual arts courses and expose myself to this world, slowly and observantly. I'll have to more research into artists and art history, and definitely tattoo art, before I should consider this seriously. I recently started picking up the pencil again, and before I went to Prague, I started to really look at pinup drawings and found to really like the work of Gil Elvgren, who's probably inspired a lot of the pinup tattoos we see today. This idea I think will stew a little slower in my head than the other two, only because it will be even more compromising, mainly because my parents will likely never approve - though I try not to let this control my future pursuits, it still does, especially because I still live with them. It really makes me wish that tattoos were less of a social stigma to them, because it is progressively becoming socially acceptable, once people realized that inked people weren't all delinquents, criminals, and sailors, or any other negative tattoo stereotype. I think my mom still thinks that people who get tattoos are stupid, crazy, do drugs, and don't succeed in life. I wish my parents could see otherwise, and were less judgmental. Though I am being pretty judgmental of them at the moment.
ANYWAY.
I don't know what to do with my life. My current immediate goals are to get a second job, and take one costume design course and some visual arts courses at UBC, as an unclassified student. I'll email New York and see what applications are like, and also for Edinburgh too. I'll also see if I'm even ready to apply, though it probably wouldn't hurt to apply anyway.
I honestly hate all of this uncertainty. I don't like this feeling of being "stuck" in a limbo, while time just keeps ticking away. I'll have to make a move, and I'm probably going to try to make myself do something sooner than later.
Monday, August 15, 2011
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